I'm learning

that good times come and go, God doesn't
that a good book beats chocolate on any day
that i can still be helplessly in love with you so many miles away
that we can still fight over the phone (and make up too)
that its okay to cry
that i miss my sister(please please write on your blog again)
that you can't know joy if you've never felt pain
that there's nothing like a hug to make a day better
that as long as there's a dawn there's always hope
that...

Sunset

The sun is setting,

we know our time is spent.

Darkness is coming,

and we must now part.

Never thought it would end this way.

Never thought it would end at all.

We were the kind couple

fairy tales are made of.

You, my knight in shining armour,

me, your Princess.

Cruel that we'll never

have our happily ever after.

But time has a way of

stealing things from us.

No i don't blame you,

like they say everything

with a beginning has an end.

The sun must rise

and so it must set.

We had dreams of

growing old together,

and in a way we have.

What we've been through

taught us things

only age would know.

You tell me over and

over again you're sorry,

You'd do anything to take it back.

It was a one night stand,

months before we met.

Now you lay dying in my arms.

fate's ripped you away from me.

No I still don't blame you.

Hush love, its almost dusk.

if we must talk,

lets' speak of what we had.

am not sorry am dying too.

It was worth it,

loving you.

Let me heal you

Your mask might fool the world
but it can't fool me.
I know you cry at night.
I know because I weep with you.
You tell the doctors
the pain is physical.
How i wish it were,
it would be much easier to deal with.
But its not the pain outside
that makes you weep,
its the one in your heart.
The labels of failure etched across you soul,
the wounds of betrayal you still allow to bleed,
the memory of injustice engraved on your mind,
broken dreams you desperately clutch.
And the anger,
-I feel that too.
you think I threw you out,
like everyone else did.

I've always been here,

waiting for you to reach out to me.
But come, let me draw near,

there was never a heart,
I couldn't heal.
Give me your pain,
and take my joy.
Give me you anger

and take my peace.
Give me your wounds
body, spirit and soul,
Beloved, let me make them whole.

To Forgive

To forgive is to put down your fifty pound pack

after a ten mile climb up a mountain.

To forgive is to fall into a chair

after a fifteen mile marathon.

To forgive is to set a prisoner free

and discover that the prisoner was you.

To forgive is to reach back into your hurting past

and recreate it in your memory so that you can begin again.

To forgive is to dance to the beat of God's forgiving heart.

It is to ride the crest of Love's strongest wave.

Lewis b. Smedes

Yours again

Every time I'm sad,
my heart reaches out to find you.
When i feel alone,
my being hugs the memory of you.
When my smile is wide,
when all is just right,
I find my soul seeks you still,
and I know this is real.
All I have to do is
search the corners of my heart
and there where my joys hide,
where my most intimate memoirs lie,
there I find you.
And for a while,
miles fade away,
and time stands still
because then my love,
we are together again.
if only for a moment,
we're together again.

Ps:Missing you still.