Wednesday, 27 June 2007
Amigo
Up until now, I thought our friendship was a guise of something deeper. Something I couldn't quite touch or see. It was something I could only feel. The fear of losing you, kept me from saying a thing. What if I was wrong? or perhaps worse still, if I was right. So I went on with this charade. The one where I was your closest confidante, your unquestionable ally and while I acted, I tried to pretend I don't miss you if I'm not with you, that I don't anxiously wait for the phone to ring or hope to catch a glimpse of you somewhere. But I got tired of pretending that I don't want to send you message because I only saw you a while ago. What does it matter, if I choose to enjoy your company? The truth is, I was afraid of falling in love with you, afraid that I was already in too deep: but now, I realise that I treasure what we have too much to ruin it by bringing cupid into the picture. I guess its easy to get romantic notions when two people are as close as you and I. But I've chosen to love you the best way I can. Perhaps not as a soul mate or your beloved, I've chosen to be the best friend I can be. Only then will I not have to pretend that I don't already miss you even when we met a few hours ago, because this time, it will be different. I really will be your amigo and not some besotted girl trying to pass off as your friend. There is that girl God's got for you and there's that guy God's got for me. As I wait for him, I pray that you too, wait for her.
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ReplyDeleteNow got to read the post
What if its him you are waiting for and you he is wait for? Do i make sense... But seriously it better cupid finds his own way without your direction... Nice post
ReplyDeleteSo babes, why don't you wanna go the whole nine yards with this guy. From the sound of it, he looks cool, eh!?
ReplyDeleteI say if u find something u want, just go for it...that "gold" might be right in front of u, and u dont pay attention...or like u said, u "pretend"..till it's lost, u don't appreciate it
ReplyDeleteI hope I'm not going off point here
but go for it
dat was so beautiful, I mean what u wrote
Aaawww Lord..that's just beautifull!!
ReplyDeleteThen again,as Silent asks..what if it's him..are you trying to convince yourself otherwise??
Takes courage and revelation
ReplyDeletehmmm.. interesting.. funny enough this relates very much to a friend of mine... but unlike you.. i havent gotten to that point yet.. where i have arrived at that conclusion
ReplyDeleteTruthfully,not everything I wrote is what is on the ground. The facts are, there is a girl and there is a guy who are really good friends and that there might be something else. the rest is part of a story. but what I can say is that u guys are right, he might be the one but i'm willing to wait for the right time. If he's the one God will make sure staff work out. Right now, I'm just waiting.
ReplyDeletePrettylyf is right about it needing courage and revelation. especially the revelation part.
ReplyDeletethis is so well written and its beautiful!Girl since u guys have such a great friendship why dont u tell him how u feel?even if he doesnt feel d same way at least u know u were true to urself and in the future there wont be "what if"..pls i think u sud tell him!
ReplyDeleteI know u want to wait for God, but if u have to wait for 5yrs or more, u really want to do that...why not go for it now, and God will other ur steps...he'll back u up...life is short
ReplyDeletenot trying to rush things here, hope u understand my point...I'm just saying don't wait too long till u lost that one thing u love, u know...
tiny little clues are left every where when you care about someone...and tiny little clues go a long way,in the long run. I'm all for treading lightly...but then again, who am I telling? You already know.
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ReplyDeleteMhh! i agree with all of them.Especially that you even came up with that kinda post.Go all the way and don't say you'll cross the bridge when you get to it.What if you never make it to the bridge? Girl? Ugo once said when God says yes no one can say no! So do what you gotta do!
ReplyDeleteThat's a really beautiful post!
ReplyDeletereally great post!
ReplyDeletebut why don't you give it a try with him. You never know, he might be the one for you. Don't let such an apportunity pass you by
ReplyDeletethanks for the advice gys but this is something i'm just going to wait out.
ReplyDeletei feel you ma sister i really do, awww i think i conclude like you.... lets be pals even though i feel this wayy at times/
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